Spirituality

My Year of Endings

When I went to see my spiritual counselor at the beginning of this year, she told me that on my birthday I will be entering a year of endings.* This is a good time to get rid of things, habits, and relationships which no longer benefit me. It’s not really a great time to start anything new.

The last few months, I’ve really been on a spiritual journey, but I still feel like I’m holding myself back. That needs to end.

So, as I’m preparing to enter my Year of Endings, here are some things I would like to let go of in my thirtieth year on this planet:

The need to fit a label. I am a witch. Since I started looking for religion, I have been a witch. Like many things, I am very open and accepting of however people want to apply that label to themselves… until I look in the mirror. When it comes to myself and my own beliefs, I still hold onto old and narrow definitions of what does and does not make me a witch. Despite the years I’ve spent on this path, I still worry about not being “witchy enough.” It is time for these limiting and outdated definitions to go.

The need to qualify. I am very scientifically minded. I want things, including my system of beliefs, to make logical sense. But, I’m learning that belief systems don’t always make sense and I can’t force them to be logical. Not everything can (or may even be meant to) be understood.

The fear of being wrong. This is tied to my need to qualify and understand everything. I think a part of me is afraid to look beyond the beliefs which make sense to and comfort me, because I don’t want to find contradictory information which will cause me to question the accuracy of my beliefs. But, this is how we grow. And beliefs are beliefs; part of the reason they are there is to bring us comfort. Just because I find contradictory information doesn’t necessarily mean I have to stop believing what I do or stop worshiping the ways I do.

Letting go of mental blocks is never easy, but I’m going to try my hardest. I know that doing so will open me up to new experiences and knowledge that otherwise I wouldn’t receive.

I love you all.

*These years (there are three; endings, creativity, and the third I always forget) are tied to one’s birth date and are varied for everyone. Just because I am entering a year of endings doesn’t necessarily mean anyone else is.

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Book Review: The Path of a Christian Witch by Adelina St. Clair

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So, as I’ve mentioned, I’ve been attending church, recently. While I didn’t think I’d actively dislike it, I will admit that I was surprised to find that I actually enjoy it, enough that I’ve gone weekly for the last five weeks.

I would not necessarily call myself any form of Christian, but I did mention that I’m intrigued by the idea of Christian witchcraft. So, I set out to find some research material.

Enter: The Path of a Christian Witch by Adelina St. Clair

The Overall Takaway: I would rate this book a 4/5 and recommend it to those interested in the niche faiths within the niche faiths. Continue reading “Book Review: The Path of a Christian Witch by Adelina St. Clair”

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A Witch's Beginnings, part three

Part One.
Part Two.

Wicca has a “harm none” edict which felt stifling to me in my late teens and early twenties. Not that “harm none” isn’t a solid principle to adhere to, but so many of the resources I found at the time promoted a sort of spiritual altruism that I just couldn’t get on board with. I was young and angry and oh-so tired of being told that was wrong. Continue reading “A Witch's Beginnings, part three”

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A Witch's Beginning: Part 2

Last week, I talked about my childhood background in Christianity and how I ended up drifting away from that, because there wasn’t much of an anchor there to begin with. Something I’ve learned through my years of searching is that spiritual connection, regardless of your religious belief, needs to be cultivated. I was never taught how to cultivate a relationship with Christianity, so it never truly developed.

So, when I began my search for religions, I wrote off all the majors as not for me. This left me not a lot of options. In fact, the only option left that I knew existed (but, by far, not the true only option left), was Wicca. Continue reading “A Witch's Beginning: Part 2”

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A Witch's Beginnings, part 1

In the past, I’ve spoken vaguely about how I came to Wicca, which shifted to Paganism, which has turned into agnostic witchcraft, which continues to shift as I continue to search. But, I haven’t spoken about where I was prior to that, or really delved into the meat of the journey which brought me to where I am now.

Let’s talk about it. Admittedly, part of my hope in writing this out is to gain some clarity for myself. My spirituality is in a constant state of flux. Looking back at where I’ve been has often helped me figure out where I’m going. Continue reading “A Witch's Beginnings, part 1”

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Finding Mentors (in strange places)

This post is inspired by the wonderful Hestia’s Servant and a post she made some time ago about a lack of elders and teachers in the Pagan community. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the people I have learned from and those I’ve been seeking out for assistance, and I’m here today to echo her sentiments. Continue reading “Finding Mentors (in strange places)”