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I’ve mentioned IML several times over the past few months, but for the uninitiated, International Mr. Leather is an annual competition that takes place in Chicago during Memorial Day weekend. There are around 60 contestants every year, and at IML 40, I will be one of them.

I qualified for the contest about a year and a half ago (when I won the title of Mr. Firedancer Dallas 2016-2017, which is worth a story of its own one of these days), and at the time, I was like, “Nifty! I’ma go to IML at some unspecified point in the distant future. That’ll be a hoot.” However, now that the event is 11 weeks away, I’m like, “OMG OMG WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?!” But hey, at least I don’t suffer from any kind of acute mental illness to make the situation even more terrifying, amirite?

[insert visual flashback effect…

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College

Excuse me while I scream incoherently into the void

My classes this semester are making me completely rethink my entire educational plan. This is not actually a bad thing.

School is stressful. This semester in particular has just been a nightmare unlike anything I have experienced before (I literally cannot miss one more day or either class without being dropped; it’s not even half-way through the semester). Every morning on my commute, all I can think is, “I cannot believe I am subjecting myself to this much anxiety. Why am I subjecting myself to this much anxiety?”

And that, my dear witches, is a good question.

Why am I subjecting myself to this much anxiety? What is it that I am trying to gain from school, and is what I’m trying to gain what I really want?

Which requires me to ask and answer the question: What do I really want?

A couple years ago, Pup bought me the Self Authoring suite developed my Dr. Jordan Peterson. I kind of played around with it, and it’s interesting and a little helpful. Pup suggested I use it to see if I can sort some stuff out. I figured, why not?

I did the first part of the Future Authoring program, which concludes with a fifteen minute free-write of what your ideal future looks like. I’ll spare you the details, but here’s what I mostly took away from it:

I am so on the wrong path.

I don’t want a fancy, super high-paying job with money to burn. I want to save enough money to put a down payment on a small house somewhere that is not San Diego (I specifically say outside of Denver, but really it could be anywhere that is not San Diego or Los Angeles) and earn enough money to pay my mortgage and my bills and have a little left over to put in a savings/retirement account. My ideal future involves gardening and chickens and writing and crafting.

My ideal future does not include telling people what they should eat, or why. It does not include lab coats or intermittent sighing at people who aren’t sticking to their Diet(tm). It doesn’t include sitting in a cold, sterile office looking at charts and cholesterol levels. It really doesn’t include anything which requires a degree, at all.

Of course, that’s my ideal future and I know that getting to that ideal means I’m going to have to slog through some shit. It’s easier to slog when you have a degree, so I think I still want to (or at least still plan to) get a degree. But, whether I’m going to stick with nutrition or go back to one of my previous majors… we’ll see. Nutrition is interesting and I’d like to understand it. I’m not sure if I want to devote the next six years of my life to what I want to be a temporary situation.

My school offers a number of certification programs and A.A. degrees. I’ve been looking at the long-game, and I think I stressed myself out too much worrying about, “Oh, but I need this to transfer here to enroll in this Bachelor’s/Master’s program…” I think maybe instead I should worry about developing a skill; even if I don’t have an advanced degree, at least I’ll have the skill.

Of course, my ideal future also changes at the drop of a hat, so who knows. That all might be totally meaningless by tomorrow morning. I just needed five minutes to think about something other than alge-blah and blah-ology. BLAH.

I love you all.


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Blogging Stuff

Oops! Midterms!

I was planning to take a week-long hiatus during spring break (the last week of March) because the idea of one week where I don’t have to do anything makes my knees weak, but I totally forgot that midterms are a thing. Probably because this is the first semester in years where I’ve had classes with midterms I actually have to study for.

Blogging is important to me, but school and studying has to take priority, so I will not be able to update regularly until after that’s over. I may post updates (ie: rants) periodically as the mood strikes me. I’m also going to try very, very hard to keep up with reading.

Regularly posting will resume on April 2nd.

Thank you for your patience.

I love you all.

Spirituality

Book Review: The Path of a Christian Witch by Adelina St. Clair

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So, as I’ve mentioned, I’ve been attending church, recently. While I didn’t think I’d actively dislike it, I will admit that I was surprised to find that I actually enjoy it, enough that I’ve gone weekly for the last five weeks.

I would not necessarily call myself any form of Christian, but I did mention that I’m intrigued by the idea of Christian witchcraft. So, I set out to find some research material.

Enter: The Path of a Christian Witch by Adelina St. Clair

The Overall Takaway: I would rate this book a 4/5 and recommend it to those interested in the niche faiths within the niche faiths. Continue reading “Book Review: The Path of a Christian Witch by Adelina St. Clair”

Mental Health

Google Maps Can Rot in Hell

I’m trying really hard not to let stress get me down. With school, that can be tough, because my biology class is so labor intensive. I hardly have time to breathe, let alone do anything else.

Spring Break is coming up, though. Just three more weeks of classes and then one glorious week off. I’m debating taking a break from everything (including blogging and social media) to relax and catch up on things which have fallen by the wayside.

Despite my best efforts to not let stress get to me, life seems to have not gotten the memo. Continue reading “Google Maps Can Rot in Hell”

Spirituality

A Witch's Beginnings, part three

Part One.
Part Two.

Wicca has a “harm none” edict which felt stifling to me in my late teens and early twenties. Not that “harm none” isn’t a solid principle to adhere to, but so many of the resources I found at the time promoted a sort of spiritual altruism that I just couldn’t get on board with. I was young and angry and oh-so tired of being told that was wrong. Continue reading “A Witch's Beginnings, part three”

Food

Cake Craft

Once upon a time, I was a functional human being with hobbies and interests. One of those interests was cake decorating. I even took the Wilton classes offered through Michael’s about five years ago (I never finished and would like to retake them one of these days).

I’ve been too busy with school this week (I had my first exam on Wednesday) to do any cooking, so I don’t have a recipe or recent pictures to share.

So, instead, I want to share the cake I made for my lesson three final of my Wilton classes! Yay! Continue reading “Cake Craft”