When I revamped my blog, I decided I didn’t want to make anymore random, nonsensical, stream-of-consciousness posts which amounted to little more than a voyeuristic look into the train wreck of my personal life. And, I’m sticking to that.
I also still want to share what’s going on in my life with you all, because you’re amazing and I love you and sharing is caring. And also, life caused me to miss last Friday’s post and I have a compulsive need to explain myself so you won’t be angry.
A few weeks ago, I met up with my friend Matt for lunch. I don’t want to get into the specifics, but he kind of called me out on something that, while 100% true, I have been electing to ignore, for the moment. I also learned some other things about him that kind of put me off (who doesn’t like Halloween?? HONESTLY). That kind of dampened the vibe and I ended up coming home feeling kind of “meh” about things.
Like I usually do when I’m in a bad mood and have no other outlet, I sat down to write a quick little story–just a way to distract myself. I sat on my bed with my laptop and wrote.
And by Monday evening–four days later–I had completed a short novella, completely without meaning to.
Yea, I accidentally wrote a book.
Of course, since I wasn’t intending to write a book (and in fact, wasn’t intending to write more than a couple pages of *ahem* romance *ahem* to get out some frustration), there’s little rhyme or reason in the beginning of the story. The characters are two-dimensional and the plot needs to be fleshed out a little more. But, I completed a story, from beginning to end, and the skeleton is solid. It just needs to be tweaked and rewritten with a little more intention.
I’m proud of that. I’m also extremely happy that, holy crap, I might actually be able to throw this up on Amazon in a year or so and people could actually buy and read something I wrote. Whaaa??
So, I’ve been distracted, spending a lot of time trying to give the characters more depth and outline the plot in a way that fills in holes I overlooked at first. Background. Emotion. An actual story arc, as opposed to idle fantasy. You know, stuff to make it believable and interesting.
(It’s also kind of… eh… adult-themed, so I’ve been debating whether or not I want to share it here or post it under a pen name–but that’s a way off.)
As though that weren’t an event in itself, the excitement of “HOLY CRAP I WROTE A BOOK” triggered more creativity. I started making jewelry like a person possessed. Jewelry making was something I enjoyed doing when I was younger, but my motivation for it kind of fell away when I hit my Big Depression a few years ago. The interest remained and I continued to buy supplies for a long time (for when I “got better”), so I had plenty to work with (and bonus: I really need to clear out my craft bins, so this was a two-birds-one-stone situation).
I’m pretty stoked about what I created. The hematite and mother of pearl bracelet is my favorite, followed closely by the blue agate and quartzite layered necklace that I actually went and bought more stuff for instead of making my current stash work. I still have a lot of pieces left over and I will never wear all this jewelry. I’m considering throwing some pieces up on etsy, once I have more done. I will be sure to post a link.
My summer class takes up a lot of time, because it’s a condensed course (to fit into the 8-week summer break, rather than a 16-week normal semester). Plus, I’ve been getting involved with my church activities–I went to a Fourth of July BBQ and this upcoming Monday (7/15) kicks off a 6-week class/discussion group I will be attending. So, there’s just been a lot of activity for me, lately. Since I’m normally not quite so active, I’m struggling to manage it.
To top it all off, Pup (my ex-fiancé and dear friend) has been having some health issues. That took up a lot of my attention for a solid week there. He seems like he’s doing much better, for which I’m grateful, but the stress from that worry really took a steep toll on me.
The thing about me is I’m an ideas person, without being an energy person. I have a lot (a lot) of awesome plans/things I want to do, but juggling all of them can leave me frazzled and sometimes I drop a ball.
I’m still around, though. And with all this activity, I have a lot to talk about, so stay tuned.
I love you all.
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